The closer I get to Jesus, the more I understand that having clarity and following His plan for me is not always about having clear and definitive answers to my questions. Instead, it’s about faith. It’s about trusting God’s perfect plan. It’s about the confidence that, even when I don’t see the end of the path, God is actively leading my steps.
I stepped away from being a pastor a few months ago, after four years of serving in that role. It was a hard decision and one that my wife and I spent lots of time praying fervently about.
We talked to friends. We sought wise counsel. We had tons of discussions with each other, weighing the possibilities, asking each other what we were feeling and what we were hearing from God.
It took us months to finally decide to step away, and even when we did there was still a trace of uncertainty.
We still wondered if it was the best decision. We were afraid we would let people down. We wrestled with fear.
But, ultimately, here is what it came down to: we knew God was nudging us in this direction. We knew it was the right thing to do. And, while we didn’t have all the answers to our questions and there was still a little fear, we knew we had to act in faith.
What I learned through that process was that walking by faith means paying attention to the ways that God is stirring up your heart and your mind, the thoughts and desires that He is placing within you.
We’re called to walk by faith and not by sight. This means that we don’t have to have a clear understanding of how our decisions or steps will impact the next steps or how they will ultimately impact our lives down the road.
It means that we move forward with the things that we have received from God – stirrings, promptings, burdens, passions, interests – and we don’t let fear or worry or unanswered questions cause us to waver or freeze.
Right now, my wife and I are still waiting on God to reveal to us what He wants next for us as far as ministry and a church where we can serve. While we wait, we are learning to trust the process.
God’s process involves the wrestling with feelings and desires. It involves all the discussions about how we’re feeling led and the back-and-forth considerations of the different possibilities.
And in the end, if we are walking closely with Him and we are walking by faith, and we are paying attention to how He is moving within our spirits, then our steps can’t be wrong. We are going to follow His will. I know this because “He who began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.”
This is what it means to walk and live by faith.